You hurt me. I know you don't know that you hurt me, but you did. You left me without a goodbye and you stood my up multiple times. You were the one that came over to me when we met. i kew it was a bad idea, but I liked the idea. I liked the idea of us when we met.
I liked that even though i didn't know you, I felt like I could be the person that I've always wanted to be.
You changed me. You showed me how to live. You showed me that even though people might not like what you are doing do it nywas because it's your life.
But you also changed me in a bad way. Becausee of you, i don't trust anyone amymore. I don't like anyone anymore. I'm rude to people.
I see couples so in love all the time, all around me and i wish it was you and i. But, it's not. It never will be because you are in love with her, not me.
You know, those three days we spent together were the best three days of my life. i wish everyday that i could turn back time and go back to those days. No joke, I dream about that weekend probably four times a week. If that doesn't mean something, i don't know what else does.
We used t talk everyday. You used to be the fisrt one to text me in the morning saying "Good morning, Brooke!" And be the last one to text me at night saying 'Goodnight, sweet dreams." It will never be the same. Never.
I hate you because you ruined my life. I hate you for taking every little bit of me and breaking me into thousands of pieces, then walking away without helping me put them back together. I hate you for making me completely incapable of functioning without you. I hate you for taking my breath away. i hate you for turning me into a mess. I hate you for not even caring that we don't even talk anymore. I hate you for breaking me heart. I hate you because I'm in unbearable pain, and you are fine. I hate watching you fall inlove with her, while I fall apart. I hate you for saying all of those magical things that you never even ment. I hate the way you make me feel. I hate the permanete ache you've put in my chest. I hate the way i can still feel your hand in mine. I hate you for leaving without a goodbye. I hate you because I'll never forget you. I hate you, but I hate me more. I miss you so much.
Every night I lay in bed and think what if. What if things had worked out between us. What if you loved me. What if she wasnt in the picture. What if not all of the other girls whent for you. What if i was your olny one. What if we havn't have met. What if...
The same things everynight. That's what ALWAYS keeps me up at night. Thinking.
So now, i'm lettig you go. I'm done with you. I'm done thinking about you. I'm done loving you. I think i will always deep down love you because you were my first love. I may not have been yours, but you were mine. I remeber when I was over you, then you and Kaylee broke up and you came crawlig back to me, just like my feelings for you did. But now, it's different. I'm done and over with you. We might still be able to be friends, but I'm not sure. Maybe one day i will have the guts to say this to your face, or maybe you will find this I dont know, but for now I'm sorry that I was a waste of your time, but deep down I will always love you. Remember that.
I made this set super fast and I just needed to get this off my chest! Congrast if you read all of it, because it willprobably just be a waste of time just like he was a waste of mine.